TODAY WAS SOME OF AN AWE (AWESOME).





met debra at gloria jeans at raffles place.



realised there's this awesome shop called paper market.
i bought like stuffs for christmas cards and for birthday gifts.
there's this adhesive that is super adorable and i just couldnt resist but to get 'em.




i took photos of these clouds cos i thought they looked cute,
and i thought rachel would like them alot hahaha.
i remember going snoopy land in osaka universal studios with her,
and seeing her go crazy about the characters and clouds hahah :).



I LOVE THE BUNNY ALOT :D.!!
it reminds me of me because i get called bunny very often hehe.

then although we were supposed to study (which failed entirely),
we went to HAJI LANE and went to a couple of shops.
since it rained and it was difficult to navigate,
(btw debra was really funny cause she started
saying 'I REPENT! I REPENT!' for not studying,
causing the obvious rain during the monsoon season hahah)

anyways, we used debra's umbrella to go to the uhm beauty shop thing.
i got my eyebrows trimmed and i'm so happy that it's cheap and really good!!! :D

then we went to bugis library and we failed also,
because the study lounge was full,
and we werent allowed to sit at the exhibition area :D.
SO WE WENT TO RAFFLES CITY AGAIN TO EAT SUBWAY!
hee hee hee hee hee...

then i met my daddy,
and we managed to buy my mom her birthday gift.
i helped him choose a wallet :3

and then i went to plaza sing with my parents...
and then chose some table cloth for my grandma who wanted it.
and walked around and around,
until we had to fetch my sister from her church choir practice :D.

and then i reached home like after 945pm.
that means i didnt do any work today!!
ARENT YOU LIKE PROUD OF ME LIKE I'M PROUD OF MYSELF?:D

i'll just end up in acjc because i slack like mad. haha whutevarrrrr.

here's the stuffs i got from fleatique i haven't post yet!! (other than the pre-ordered ring of course :D)

treated bff and hot jem to starbucks after POP.
got a new topshop shirt yay. :) sleeveless with laces (HAHAHAH)

hahah mitosis in plants. cant believe they did this. awesome la hahaha.

sigh i should really realise prince charmings doesnt exist hahah.
i was like looking through vera wang's wedding dresses.
different interpretations of bella's wedding dress,
christian siriano (OMG) designs <3.
they are like oh em gee i wanna get married now LOL. 
hahah i'm totally like far far away from anything like this.
i think thats why i'm able to still be dreamy about it :)

for the finale, something i took from greylikeweddings.wordpress(amazing site)

"2 Corinthians 12:9
⁹And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me."

I am so ever thankful for my Lord almighty for giving me peace at heart. haha Os are like tomorrow and i feel as though it's over already. i'm REALLY thankful for that. because i cannot work under stress, and i am horrible when i get anxiety attacks. what i'm going to do later is just read the bible and mediate upon God's awesome perfect words :).

know what's the best part? not only do i know i can surrender my entire O levels to God; i know that God would be with me throughout the entire Os!! He'll send His angels to help me and guide me, and His unconditional love and blessing and grace and wisdom would help me achieve my aims in whatever possible way i was planned to be :).

what's going to happen for the next 30 days or so is not by my power; but by God's divine grace and love. really. like for my chinese O levels which i got B4. that's the highest i ever got before. haha. and i know Os would just be perfectly fine because He's leading me. whatever points i get, i know i want to fulfill it according to His purpose. if i get good grades He knows where i would want to go; and if i get other grades i would gladly accept it knowing that God has a different plan for me.

i have never felt so complete and calm for any exam before.

Thanks be to God.
Soli deo Gloria :)

i wanna dive at manado, go for photoshoot at jkt, go shopping at bandung, visit christopher at surabaya, make a photo collage of eoy holiday activities, make a photo collage for people, paint paint paint, sketch sketch sketch. :D. omgsh cant wait hahaha.

'keren, of course you miss him. he was the only one you really loved. the rest of the guys were just oh-you-like-me-so-i-fancy-you-too-and-let's-get-together.' hahah true true.

SOLA GRATIA:
ci arlene: keren what are you gonna
do aft you heard today's sermon?
keren: forgive my ex boyfriend; pray tonight.


O level's retarded la omgs
i'm feeling extremely down nowadays :(.

for the first time in my life i wish i could cry. i've not cried for i dont know how may days/weeks. and i just wanna cry right now. problem's that i cant. i've been trying to isolate myself from anyone and everyone too long, trying to be strong and immune to every circumstance too long that i'm no longer vulnerable to feelings. i know it's scarier to not feel anything and to feel everything too much. how isit that i'm an emotional person now not being emotional? it's like not being myself. how am i supposed to feel okay like this :(. there's this part of me who wants to interact being the sanguine that i am, and a part of me who would naturally automatically turn away from crowds being the melancholic side that i have. it's so difficult to compromise between both ends; it's extremely difficult now that Os are nearing and i dont know what to do arghhh.

i've not finished revision for Os. and i dont even feel like doing any revision. i dont know why. i dont want to go and meet people who asks whats wrong with me because i dont like feeling obliged to tell people my problems; neither do i feel comfortable having no one to understand me at all. i dont like people asking me what's wrong, and i'd rather selectively choose people i tell my problems to. nowadays i dont know why i dont share much anymore--i stopped talking and sharing my feelings out which is definitely detrimental.

i stopped writing profound thoughts out in my lifejournal because i know schoolmates are reading my blog and criticising it without knowing any background information whatsoever. how am i supposed to feel comfortable this way?

neither do i feel comfortable telling anyone my problems because it takes years (literally) for me to trust anyone completely. so i feel really uncomfortable when people ask me too many stuffs. i feel extremely extremely uncomfortable.

sometimes i look at myself and i ask myself whether i deserve anything; and i realise i actually might not really have anything. argh i dont know. maybe it's because i'm blessed with so many things that i'm such a bitch. that i like to isolate myself from people because there's this inferior feeling or whatsoever. i dont like labels and i dont know what's wrong with me :(

i cant epically wait until i'm over with my teenager years :( seriously. i want to interact but i love isolating myself; i want to share but i cant seem to open up my mouth to anyone; i want to cry but something's holding me back. it's as if i'm bounded and encased by reality that does not allow my escapism to take over my usual self.

i want my old self back. the happy-go-lucky big cry baby who likes to be raucous and simple-minded.

i'm going to pray to God now :(. then do my corrections before i rush for 'exciting' tuition. </3

i've concluded that it would require honesty, trust, forgiveness, acceptance, appreciation, love, respect, understanding, sacrifice, companionship and alot of other thingsssss.

everytime i look back to the old entries, i want to skip a few. i want to forget the sad times, to prevent myself from stirring up the same old emotions. i want to cry no more :(. i want to be happy and pretend like i'm okay. i dont want any random person to know my problems. i want to smile and laugh with true happiness. D: i want things to go my way.