Okay it feels like extremely weird to use Microsoft word to blog now. Hahaha. I’m just gonna copy and paste this later on. I did this in Indonesia before anyways… long story. Apparently I’m like half an hour early to meet yq and his aunt at woodlands. So I just went down at bkt batok to go to westmall’s library to sit down and enjoy the presence of my macbook.

Cant believe I haven’t really blogged for ages. Hahaha. and sometimes I’m so lazy I just upload photos cause I think PEEKTURES SPEAK A THOUSAND DIFFERENT THINGS. TEE HEE HAHAHAHAHA. J I wanna imagine Christopher thamrun’s face when he reads this :3.

Anyways, I’ve been really really really busy? My SATs are like next Saturday and I don’t think I even have time to study for it until next Tuesday or Wednesday hahahaha. I’m just gonna anyhow vomit out blood because I don’t even know what they’re really gonna test J. Oh and this smileys in Microsoft word is really funny too! Hahaha.

Went to butterfactory two nights ago, met a lot of friends and stuffs. Okay I’m still really surprised I’ve not blogged in ages because I an absolute escapist and expressionist; not exhibitionist HAHAHA. bleh.

Okay, a lot of things are kinda like running around my head these days: how relationships can just be broken or dampen within hours although it takes like many months to be built up; or how you sometimes wonder whether you’ve found the right guy yet.

I also realised that you’d always wanna seek something that you didn’t have before? And I sometimes understand that living standards play quite a bit of importance in any form of relationship; friends or more than just friends.

Travelling to the east and north is really different okay. I thought everyone goes to town all the time. (speaking of which, I might go to town tonight with Allison hehe. We needa find our stupid dresses for the upcoming concert that we’re gonna emcee. We spent like A LOT of effort, including the help from debra I really should credit for :D).

Nonetheless, I think the main reason why I could survive without a blog is because I could rant to people? Like to debra or chris (after his return from Australia with my koala keychain :DDDDD) and yongquan and timothy and leroyyyyy. Tee hee. Okay okay I’m quite amused by this typing thing in Microsoft word. I really hope I don’t have to get used to it. I totally forgot my account for wireless@sg so the feeling really sucks tsk! >(

2:16pm, Westmall Library, KIDS SECTION! J.

PS: AND OMG AMAZING LEROY HAS HELPED ME GET AN ACC IN QMAX SO I CAN POST THIS UP YAY!!

On the Dual Expression of Love

- Why does A True Love Cause Many Grieves in This World? -

Love has one nature with dual expression. The nature of love is a free commitment of giving the totality of one’s self to the other person whom he/she loves. Yet, this one nature expresses itself in two ways:

1.       The acceptance of the other person as he/she is,

2.       The hope for the best of him/her.

These two expressions often contradict one another in our daily lives, since there is a great disparity between the fact and the ideal. We even sometimes do not know what the true ideal is! And remembering the one nature of love (which is self-giving) , this disparity between the fact and the ideal causes a lot of grieves.

Love finds its consummation only when the fact meets the ideal. This needs great perseverance, but it is the test for a genuine love. When we are tired seeing the contradiction of the dual expression, go back to its one nature. When we are bored with the ‘abstraction’ of the one nature, go back to its dual expression. This cycle goes round and round until love finds its glorious consummation.

God Himself expresses His love in this dual expression.

In Christ, He has accepted us just as we are. We are filthy sinners, worthy of hell. But God accepts us, not due to our good condition, but due to Christ’s righteousness imputed to us. This first expression of God’s love is called justification.

Through the Holy Spirit, we are being sanctified day by day in God’s great hope, patience, and perseverance. God does not want us to stay the same, as Joey McIntyre sings! Our reality now as sinners is not good for us. The consequence of sin is self-destruction, while God, in His love, does not want us to destroy ourselves. Thus, He teaches us, chastises us, comforts us, encourages us, and strengthens us day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute, and even second by second, with deep tears and hope. This second expression of God’s love is called sanctification.

Back behind this dual expression, we can see the nature of God’s love: His full commitment to give Himself for us. And the greatest clarity of God’s commitment can be seen in the Bible, from Genesis 3:15 until Revelation 21, all pointing to Jesus Christ, whose Name is Love.

Do you feel that loving is painful? Are you hurt when you deeply love someone? Remember Jesus Christ, who was born to suffer, to bear our sins on the cross. Before you feel hurt, remember the One that has been hurt because of your sins. Then your pains will be lightened, and your wounds will be healed.

We love because He first loved us.

- I John 4:19 -